Apparently, it isn’t ADD. The doctor is ready to phone in an Rx for anti-depressants at any time(if I decide they are right for me, I can call him without having to go in). I am not comfortable with this. I find a lot of logical and physiological contradictions in the use of anti-depressants for people who are simply stressed more than the average for longer than is okay.
The meds are a miracle of modern medicine, but not everyone needs a miracle. For those who do need a miracle, they are an important part of life. And
Tom Cruise those who have never needed them have no right to judge or condemn their use.*
I have taken anti depressant medication before. That is how I know I am still in a place where the trade off is not worth it. For me. Right now.
My philosophical position on my own personal situation has changed, and I am not at all uncomfortable or ashamed to hold that position:
The stress here has been going for a long time. Even before we moved to [Little City] from [Big City], a friend told me, “If I had the kind of stress you have I would have a breakdown.” That was seven or eight years ago.
A whisper is on the wind. The possibility of change. For Mother’s Day, I get to visit with my best friend. She might be moving near. Both husbands are telling us not to run ahead of the Lord, but we are busily creating a WWCMD (What Would C and Maggie Do?) bracelet for the Jesus to wear. Just kidding.
I am not there yet.
Today, I am Pouring My Heart Out @ Things I Can’t Say.